Wednesday, January 19, 2011

History of a Fatty

Well, I guess I should give you all a little background on myself...

I'm a 26 year old woman. I'm 5'2" tall and I'm overweight- like so many other men and women today. However, I am finally putting my nose to the grindstone and doing something about it.

As a kid, I was normal weight. I played a lot of sports, lived on a farm and did a lot of yard/farm work. My mom cooked us dinner every night and packed our lunches for school every day.

I became concerned with my weight when I was very young- but I wasn't concerned about being too big. I was more concerned with being too small. When I was about 6 or 7 I watched a scary movie with my family. The movie depicted a woman who was all skin and bones. I found this the scariest part of the movie for some reason. I knew I didn't want to look like her ever and I began cleaning my plate and habitually checking my rib cage to see how boney it was. Sounds weird and it is even more weird now that I am writing it.

I played hockey from 5 years until 12 years old. I quit because I was embarrassed by an incident where I headed on a break away to the wrong goal (thankfully realized it and fell down). I played very competitive fastball until I was 15. I was great. I was one of the best pitchers in the league. However, the coaches were mean and spiteful people. They had an issue with my Father who had coached other teams and disagreed with their style of coaching (which was to yell and humiliate us). They decided to cut me from the teach the next chance they got. It was a shock and a surprise to say the least.

During high school I was still able to play on a few fastball teams and ran on the track team. Track team had intense practices everyday at lunch and you had to attend at least 3 per week. I really liked it. But, I changed schools in Grade 11 and didn't really know anyone in my new school which was very sport focused with a widespread "jock" mentality.

I became somewhat inactive. I got a job and a car. I finally had money to buy things that I wasn't able to have when I depended on my parents. We never had a lot of money growing up, so now I could buy the food I wanted, the sugary coffees, go out to lunch with friends, etc. I rarely exercised since gym class was not mandatory. I got a small break when I was asked to try out mid season for the Manitoba Magic Junior fastball team. I was too young for the team, but they had heard about me, called me up, and waived my fees. I made it! I was playing a sport I loved again. However, the following years were just too expensive for me. I was done with team sports.

After turning 18, I began to drink. I drank a lot. Sugary drinks. Ate bad hangover food and worked long, late nights at a hotel where I was provided with meals from the restaurant. I packed on some weight, but couldn't tell you how much because I never weighed myself- bad idea!

Then....... I fell in love. They say you put on weight when you are in love and I believe that now. He put on the pounds too. They come off of him at a much faster rate than they do for me though!

When I finally decided to do something about it, I was about 225 lbs. I went on Slimfast. Lost 20lbs. Then, gained back 30lbs. In 2009, I decided to try again. I walked for exercise and counted calories for about 3 months. I lost 30lbs! I was so happy to be down to 205lbs. But, I got a bit lazy and gained back about 10lbs.

In 2010, I joined a gym and got back down to about 203lbs. I increased my fitness levels by doing cardio on the treadmill, elliptical, and arc trainer. I even started doing strength training. But.... life threw me through a loop. I turned to food as I always have to comfort me in a sad time. I shot back up to 218.4. That is when I decided to make a REAL change.

On December 1st, 2010 I woke up and I decided to change me life, to change my actions. I wanted a different lifestyle. I dusted off my gym membership that sat underutilized for a few months and I trashed the garbage food. I got back on track.

That brings us up to today. Weight is still fluctuating. The holidays through me off a bit, but I am still going and working toward me goal of a new healthy me!

Stay tuned for more!

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